There are times in your life when you start to forget who you are, times when you go out and have a beer with a friend in the middle of the day for absolutely no reason, times when a friend won't answer the phone because you have failed him or her in some way, times when a friend's life changes radically, times when you can't remember who and what matters to you...I fail people , it's in my nature...I wish I could be happy for the joyful ones, close to those who are distant, supportive for those who are weary...I'm a mess, always late, always regretful , always absent, always irrelevant...please forgive my wrong steps and the words I never said, the smiles I never meant, the tears I never cried, the thoughts I never had...I'm never where I am supposed to be, always complaining about my superficial problems, always wrong, never a good friend...I'm sorry for passing through your lives without leaving a smile on your lips, my friends. I love each one of you, but I never seem to know how to show it properly ...
